Whew! It's been a whirlwind of a week! My to-do list has more checkmarks on it, but naturally it got a bit longer too.
Another coach, named Shannon Cohen, wrote a book called "It's Normal to Shake As You Soar". Catchy names usually grab my attention, so naturally I bought it months ago. It sits on my desk as a constant reminder as I plunge into the deep end here! The deep end could anything really. My "yes" to most things will bite me sometimes when I'm at a crossroads of which thing needs to get done first. Honestly, I can think of 3 things that need attention now. Yet, I chose to blog.
"Ok, Karen… what's your point? Where are you going with this?" is what you're thinking. Well, as I spent the better part of the last month working on this website launch, I look at my beloved first site. The one I put hours into, designing my look, my logo, my color palate. I have a sadness as I transition here. Not because this site doesn't rock (I even got a compliment from tech support yesterday), but because I've changed.
Why am I sad for the growth? Honestly, it's more for the person who had to go through all the experiences and self doubt! A little broken, scared, fearing the unknown! So much of that time was spent worried, distracted. But, we were in a pandemic, so I can't be too hard on myself.
But I sit here more focused, more clear! I've continued to learn, challenge myself, do new things. Heck, I was a school bus driver for a year and a half. That was scary! And the big yellow vehicle was the easy part! I've also learned to take care of myself. Self-care is often forgotten, but it is so critical and necessary.
My sadness for my growth is temporary. I can say as I sit here, I am authentically who I want to be. Flawed, of course! But I'm happy with the energy and light I put out in the world. Teaching my 16-year-old how to drive results in crying… not from anger, but from laughter.
I know who I am. Took awhile to figure it out, but I'm so glad I took that time. Be true to who you are!
"Be Yourself. Everyone else is already taken."